Velvet64

I desperately want to be more active on here, I love the deviant-art community, and with my camera from last Christmas I really thought there would have been more activity from myself. Alas life gets in the way. As of late, life has been interesting, with alot of busy busy all the time. Moved into my bf house, moved again into a new house with the bf, and our roommates. got a puppy, adopted a mouse, and still over feed my Rat. I cant remember the last time I wrote anything fictional. only journals which even those have come to an almost standstill. I miss being artistic, I miss being happy.

Well theirs been alot of changes in the last month many of them I would-now this is putting it lightly say. Wheren't Wanted nor liked Changes. But as a family we seemed to have gotten through them. My sister went in for surgery and is doing good, at home resting. Autumn n Hunter are with Mama and Papa. My parents moved... the house that I called my home for so many years is now gone. Gramma Kay got left behind. I moved, and as of this moment dont technically have a place to call my own. life sometimes can be held on the finest blades edge. I haven't been able to find a moment to deal with my emotions, and Im not to sure when I w

Well I find myself packing, and getting ready to move. Nervouse about my choice yet still excited, and haunted all the same... just trying to focus on the tasks at hand, absorbed in getting everything organized. Its easier it keep my mind off things when my hands are busy... sometimes I want to scream out with frustration at how even doing little things latly makes me tired and sick, Im constantly in bed, or laying down body feeling exhausted yet, when I finally close my eyes sleep evades me.. the terrors are back, and im to tired to fight it anymore. Starting to feel helpless, like no matter how hard I work, or what I choose Im